Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
What I feel now:
- Blissful - for being able to finally celebrate my dream wedding day with the man I love surrounded by my family and some close personal friends.
- Excited - for becoming a blushing bride with the white dress, flowers, etc.
- Nervous - for being the center of attention of hundreds of people on the actual day.
- Anxious - from the things that may not be going so smooth as planned on the D-Day. I try to break the Murphy's Law here, stay positive and trust my Wedding Organizer for the major wedding reception preparations.
- Sensitive - with almost every little things that come up about my wedding preparations. I am trying to quit comparing weddings. Every wedding is different, especially on the budget side.
- Irritated - with issues, negative feedback and dramas related to my wedding preparations that arise these days. Although I can't help all those adverse events to come to the surface.
- Stressed out - with almost everything. Albeit my efforts to enjoy the ride in preparing my wedding as it only happens once in a lifetime, I must confess that sadly, there are times that I wanted all this to be over soon. *I keep reminding myself on how I am gonna miss this period one day*
Are these emotions normal?
What I have done to date:
- Closely monitored my Wedding Organizer on the wedding preparation progress. I try to get my hands on the on-site issues preparation via SMS, email and online chatting almost on daily basis now, namely on the band issues, dresses for the 'usher girls', guests' seating arrangements, decorations, pre-wedding photo slides, number and roles of assigned staff from the organizer team on the D-Day, wedding cake, red wine for the ceremony, sound system, etc.
- Almost daily contacts are made between my parents and me. I mostly check on the wedding invitation cards distribution progress, car rentals for our overseas guests, booked hotel rooms and payments for some suppliers. I didn't know what I would do with my wedding preparations without my parents' massive help on all the logistical issues.
- Sent the wedding invitation cards to my personal friends via e-mail too, just in case snail mail fails us. Shared some tips with friends who are from different cities on how to get to my hometown or reach the hotel for the reception.
- Sought advice from some friends who recently had their weddings on some important stuff that I need to anticipate to minimize potential problems during the actual wedding day.
What I need to do now:
- Start packing as I will be flying off to Indonesia early next week. Ensure that I don't leave anything important out here in Malaysia
- Try to relax. My Mother-in-Law already told me to manage my stress level carefully and reduce my workload now. I need to take care of my eye bags which are already quite severe.
- Prepare some cash and go to money changer! Weddings are expensive. I need to be mentally prepared for looking at my savings account balance post wedding. Haha!